雖然稱不上塵埃落定，最起碼已經離地面不遠了~
很開興。卻同時有一點擔心。
不過我決定不去想那麽多了啦~^_^

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YEAH YEAH!!! Finished ALL my essays and assignments le!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woohoo!!!!
So its time for me to start serious mugging!!! hmm~ just one more presentations on Monday!! yipee!!!

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I am such a problem kid~ especially when it comes to work...
Hai~~ Cannot man!!! Need to learn from experience and train up!!! JIAYOU!!

The following post was written during tutorial today~

我只不過想盡本份做好自己的事，不想為我的朋友帶來太多不必要的麻煩。。。
我萬萬沒想到原來坐著什麽都不理是不夠的。
即使踏出了辦公樓，也要堤防隱藏在你視線範圍外的“唇槍舌劍”。
一不小心就會被槍刺一下，被劍划一下。

我想來不肯承認我是個入世未深，不懂江湖險惡的阿憨呆。我一直覺得，對於人生，我是經歷了不少的。可是到22嵗時才發現原來我把這個世界美化了。
這些年來，我一直相信，你對人好，人家也會對你好。
即使是最冷酷，兇惡的人，只要打從心底對他/她露出一個真心的微笑，雖然他/她未必會以同樣的方式回應，但最起碼態度也不會太苛刻~
這是我的信仰。可是原來我錯了。
這個信念 is only applicable to 一些人，是不是多數，還有待考證。

或許這就是爲什麽我一直嚮往服務業。多半只需要和你服務的對象打交道。不管真心與否，你不需要絞盡腦汁，想著如何明哲保身。

怎經有個看手相的先生說，我不容易被人暗算。(現在應該有人覺得他是個神棍吧~:P) 我原本也不相信~ 可是後來 Celest 跟我說：“可能是因爲你還沒有遇到會暗算你的人吧”
事情是不是真的是如此呢？我寧願我永遠也不知道。
這麽一來，人性在我心裏仍然是美麗的。

但現在是時候了。
從前我做任何事都會有所保留，尤其是對我不喜歡的人。
因爲我會有一個“日後好相見”的心理。
所以每次吵架都點到爲止。我真的不希望說出我以後會後悔的話。就算想到什麽計謀，最終也只是幻想而已。

我現在正式宣佈，從今天起，我有了另一個座右銘：

人家敬我一尺，我敬人家一仗
If you give me shit, I will give you hell

Think that I say say only just like before?
Allow me to remind you, I am a Scorpio.
我一直覺得我並不是一般人所說的天蠍座。
But I realised, I have only YET to become one.

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I just wanna say, from today onwards, I promise to protect myself more.
Although that may mean that I have to change some parts of my character~
Of course, 要不是不得已，我也不想這樣~
But~~~ I have decided, I should not continue staying in my own fairyland anymore...
Its time to wake up and grow up.

長大換來良心的折磨，所以我要永遠是現在的我。
這句話更本就是浪漫主義~~~

突然想問大家一個問題~

如果有一天，一個和你還算不錯的朋友和一個和你有過結的人成爲情侶，你會怎麽辦呢？
你會：

1）爲了你朋友，嘗試接受那個人？
2）仍然不接受那個人，和你的朋友漸漸疏遠？

可能很多人會選擇 1 吧~
可是我選擇了 2 ~ 也許友情還沒那麽深，所以比較容易吧~
我當然希望他幸福快樂~ 但是在世上並不是什麽都能兩全其美的~
當你作出選擇時，就一定會犧牲掉一些~

也許是我太小氣~
又或許有其他的原因吧~

whew~~ Finally done with one essay... althought think still fall short of a few hundred words.. dun care le... :ppp
One more to be handed in this fri!! JIAYOU!!

hmm~~ Past few days had been busy n interesting...
1st on Mon, I was hailing for a cab in sch to go work...
den, saw 2 guys hailing oso... den they asked if I need a cab, he say i can have it 1st..
But I say nonono~ u have it 1st since u guys were here 1st...
Den he actually suggested we take together!! wahahaha... and his company will pay for it!! XDDD
But they going to chinatown but I gg to middle road leh...
But still!! I save quite abit leh!! haha... imagine i take all the way from NUS.. kao.. will be damn ex!!
Haha... super lucky!! there are actually ppl who dun mind a stranger sharing cab with them ><
That very same night, we the triad, had a super long and depressing conference till 3am!! basically tok abt our life story~

On Tuesday, basically I stayed up to do my essay~ glad that I finished at 2+ hehe...

Think will be staying up again on Thurs nite!! hai... :(((

Today, I met someone..
Someone I haven't seen since the day we got our O level results...
I knew this person is in NUS but nv had a chance to meet until today...
It really did brought back some memories...
I dunno if we share the same memories, I am just glad that we met again after so many years... ;)

One more thing!! Something I heard from a lady working in the company today~~
Her subordinate is recommending her somebody, say she is pretty~
Den that lady actually said "oh~ Pretty, very good!! Pretty means half the battle won le!!"
When I heard that, I was like -_-|||
This is the 1st time I heard somebody declaring that out loud!!
Although we noe that in real life, good-looking ppl actually have more advantages...
But everybody only keep it in mind~ This is the 1st time I hear this man.. From an employer somemore... orz...

Oh~~ erm.. I have decided not to read that thing anymore...
For those who noe wat issit, yup! its THAT thing lah!!
Although I am not guilty abt wat its mentioned there, I am guilty of hmm.. another thing loh...
And although I noe I wun make much diff, but still should punish myself for erm... that thing I am guilty for...
For those who dunno, its ok lah~ not important~ ;)

COunting down to exams : 30days!!!

WTH!!!
書也可以改版~
*無言中*

等待後面是等待，更沉默的等待。。。
不知道爲什麽竟然會是中國...
但現在唯一能夠做的除了等，也只有等吧。。。
雖然心理超不爽的！

I am beginning to miss my mum.. :(((
She flew to Shanghai this morning.... hai.. It will be May before I will see her again...
Although there's quite a little restriction when she's ard, she had been a great help and great companiant!! Helping me do all the chores, chit-chatting with me... complaining to each other... etc~

Oh yes! I remembered what I wanted to say yesterday night on the cab...
I just wanna say that one day I will just pack a luaggage and just go on a journey by myself...
Like wat she said, if its meant to be drifted away, it will be... if its not meant to, it will not be...
I have made an effort~ I dunno whether its enough, but at least I tried...

Scorpions are ppl who love themselves most...
I do not noe if its true... But it seems like its getting more and more true as years go by...
It started off with 100% effort, but as I passed through different stages of life, the percentage seems to decrease... Once bitten, twice shy.... Now when I make friends, I dun put in extra effort anymore... Those who really became my friends, were all through a natural proccess...
I always tried to imagine scenarios in which I can say to myself " HEY!! You got friends who really supports and love u!" But everytime I am disappointed... So, I have learnt not to have anymore expectations...
I dunno wat will happen as time goes by...
But to all those who stayed on all these while, I thank you!!
To those who have left, I used to be so upset abt it.. But now... ha...
To those who are going to stay for little while more, in the past, I will imagine you guys to stay on forever but now I am really unsure of how long we will continue hanging ard~
To all those whom I am going to meet in the future, I am sorry that I am not able to commit 100% anymore...

17/3/06

I dragged myself out of bed today... Cos I have to go back sch to meet my lecturer... Dr Lo (the philosophy teacher~~)
Because I did not hand in an assignment during lecture, he say he wanted to meet me... :(((
The minute I knew about this on Tue, I have been worrying...

As I approaches his office, I just felt as if I am attending some oral exam...
However things did not turn out to be as bad....
He started by asking me how long I took to come school etc... Not so tense kind of qns... whew~~

Den he asked why issit that I kept taking his module... This is the 3rd module....
I totally stunned.... I kept faking some laughter... "hehehe erm... hahaha..." Den I just crap something like I want to really try understand more regarding the things he teach... I dun even noe what the hell I am toking... I can't possibly tell him that
"oh~ Cos I really respect you and I admire and like you as a teacher. So no matter how badly I score, I still wanna take ur module"
Firstly, its will be so embarrassing!!
Secondly, he might just think that I am licking his boot...
So~ wat for?

We tok for about 1 hour... Apart from the things related to studies, (which took maybe 50% of the time) we spent time toking about LIFE... He asked me things like what issit I like to do, and told me how I should live my own life rather than others affecting me~ Also, he told me lots of difficulties in the environment we live today~ There were lots of long pauses in our conversation... rather awkward... But in the last 10 min of our conversation, I suddenly felt very very touched.. I can't quite remember what was it that he said at that moment that I felt tears in my eyes... I can only remember I cried the moment I stepped out of his office... And on my bus journey to work as well...

I really thank GOD for this teacher...

When I reach Allson hotel, walking to my work place, I noticed there were lots of traffic police around.. lots of those motobikes were parked by the National Library... Den a big groups of ppl standing around, looking at something... I was like "wats going on"?? Den I realised "OH!!! The Queen is visiting the National Library today!!!!" Den, joining some other, I stood on the ledge trying to catch a glimsp! I was opposite the Nationa Library with a road in between..
And yes!!! I saw her!!!! She came out of the library, waving to all the people~ And there were actually people cheering... (I suspect those ppl are ca-re-fe) So excited!! haha... How often do you get to see a member of the Royal Family?? Esp. a Royal Family that is still currently holding on to some actual power??

Saw from the papers, that she will be visiting Toa Payoh to take a look at our neighbourhood!! I was so so excited!!! haha.... But disappointed as well... cos I will not be anywhere near home today leh.... :(
But nvm!!! At least I managed to catch her at the National Library!!! ;DDD

And thanks G and Jingzhen for having me join them for the evening!! ;)))))

3月15日的中國通史講義裏。。。

梁副教授 ：中國現在有幾個省份？

中國同學：30 幾個~

另一個中囯同學：34個~

梁副教授：34各... 有沒有包括台灣？

中國同學：有！

昏昏慾睡的佩蓉這時突然驚醒~ 狠狠地瞪了那位同學。
是從後面瞪的，那位同學當然沒察覺。

梁副教授：我沒有給答案哦~

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3月14日的中國婦女史的輔導課裏。。。

王老師：所謂的名妓其實是許多才子的紅顔知己，不單單是有某些需要時才找她們的。

某位很喜歡向老師挑戰的同學：如果沒錯，這些名妓是不是相等於日本的藝妓？

一直沒辦法給予任何確定答案的佩蓉大聲，肯定地說了 "不是"!!!!

王老師：日本的藝妓我不是很清楚~

佩蓉：不是！根本不一樣！！！

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靠~ 関我屁事啊~ 我即不是台灣人也不是日本人，那麽激動幹什麽？
可是，我就是聼了很不爽！！！！
我極度受不了中國死咬著台灣不放的一切行動！！！
當初沒本事保住她，讓她落如日本人的手裏，現在她有成就了，就像強盜一樣想把她奪回去~
請試想想，這近一百年來，有對她做出什麽貢獻嗎？
我也極度受不了一些打腫臉充胖子，明明不了解，卻喜歡凴自己那雞皮蒜毛的常識，胡亂下定論的人！！！

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Anyway~ today's was my 1st day of work as a subtitler~ hai.. really disappointed at myself... So slow... But I promise I will be much much faster tmr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JIAYOU!!!!

Yeah!!! First post at fivemonthday.blogspot.com!!!
1st of all!! Thanks to my tuition kid, Xin tian.. for coming out with this name :ppppp

Past weekend was like hell.... I.T show was not like what I imagined!!! I tot its just stand there and act busy one!! BUT!!! It turned out to be the busiest job I have ever undertake!!! ><
You wun believe how busy one can get!!! Everyone was so busy that its an extremely difficult task to go for lunch breaks!!! I basically lost my voice after 4 days of talking, shouting...
Now, I noe everything about the 5 desktops Dell sold at the show... You can ask me everything abt it... kao...
Apart from dealing with 5 customers simultaneously and w/o letting them feel left out... Still must get the irritating perm staff out of the way!!
I am really still quite upset that I got no extra pay for all those effort... :(((
But at least must thank Galvin, my boss for the dinner he promised! At least SOMEBODY knows that I am working hard...

Ok!! This week's is really going to be busy again... THanks to Jingzhen for getting me the job!! I promise I will do a good job!!! ;DDD

And lastly.... I am SUPER SUPER upset that I wasn't able to attend Leehom's concert on sun!!! AARRRGGGG~~~~~ They all looked DAMN SHUAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But at least I noe that he will be coming to Singapore for concert this year!! hehehe.... and he IS coming for Qian Chang Hui afterall~~ haha... I thought of the thing to say to him le!!!! haha........ Not like previous years.. Just say Thank You....
But... thanks leh... Must he come in April?? Cannot come in March meh??? Since he going to Malaysia... so difficult to just cross the causeway to come here meh!!!???

*can't wait to have my 1st up close and personal meeting with Dr Lo....* :(((

Today's sales... Chop Chop oso got 30 ba~~??
Its definitely better than yesterday ba... Busy like mad as expected.... Its ok to be busy you noe??? Its ok that I am paid so badly for the amount of work I produced... What boils my blood is...

1) When there are SO many customers around, ppl actually still stand around and chit-chat or do every other things except assisting customers...
2) When some ppl just spend time maintaining good relationships with the "boss" or just hide inside the room to slack simply because he or she knows the "boss" well...
3) When ppl doesn't recognise all the hard work you have done...

They get $7 per hour, I oso get $7 per hour... Why issit that ppl can slack SO MUCH!! And I even have to serve customers while eating my "dinner"? Why issit that I have to answer 5 customers' enquiries at the same time.. just because ppl are everywhere except where the customers crowd around???

I got so pissed that I just refuse to stay back to listen to the redundant "Q & A" session... Will you still have so many unanswerable questions if you have attended to enough customers????

First day of work was Not Bad at all!!!
I would say I have really enjoyed it!! Although it will be more enjoyable if the pay was higher :ppp
Afterall~ I can still do sales lah.. Just that cannot give me quota and base on commission~~
My voice almost gone after th 1st day~~
So my dear friends, if you are going to IT Fair, can drop by Dell to say Hi!! But I most prob can't quite chit-chat with you ah...
Thursday Nite is already like hell... I cannot imagine weekends loh...

Oh!! I can finally understand why Ashin always have to stand with his legs open... U noe ah... when you are kind of tall, you will have to do that quite often... esp. when you are facing customers and dun wanna be rude... yes... I stood the so-called 大 shape 50% of the time today... esp. when my customer is a guy and yet shorter than me ~~ it can be quite 辛苦 and it definitely dun look very nice for a lady to stand that way... :p

And Yes!!! That brother of mine will be gg to Army tmr!!!!!!!!! Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!! haha... will get to see him less often.... Although this makes me sound very bad.. But well.. I am just being frank~~

Please allow me to 發洩!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHY AM I NOT ON MY WAY TO TAIWAN???? :'(((((((((
LEEHOM'S HAVING 2 NIGHTS OF CONCERT THIS WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I NOE THAT HIS SPECIAL GUEST WILL BE WESTLIFE~ FINE!! FORGET IT~
BUT WHY MUST HIS SPECIAL GUEST FOR 2ND NIGHT MAYDAY???????????????
KAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I ALREADY VERY SAD THAT I CANNOT GO FOR HIS CONCERT LE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NOW, MAKE ME EVEN MORE MORE MORE MORE SAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yo guys!!! This should be the last entry to read under ilovewuyuetian.blogspot.com k??
no no~ I not closing down lah... Just changing the URL ;)
With effect of 13th March, I will change my blog to fivemonthday.blogspot.com
As easy to remember rite? :PPPPP

Dun think anybody will have it by den ba... haha... So hor~ for those that linked me, sorry ah...
Have to trouble you guys to do abit of amendments ;PPP

Suddenly everything become unsure, uncertain... This is what I hate most!!!
I did not sleep since yesterday... I am a person who needs lots of security and I need to be SURE!!
When I openly declared how sure and how confirm I was, after the good chat, everything came toppling on top of me...
So... I am not that sure after all...

Anyway, took some "actions" today~ Now I shall wait and see...

PS: This year's Oscar very boring leh... waste my effort to skip lecture to watch it...
But I am proud that Ang Lee was the 1st Chinese to win the Best Directing!! (WHew~ luckily not *ahem* the other Chinese) Dunno who I am referring to?? well~ its not someONE but some other ppl lah~ Still dunno?? Give you a clue!! Why am I not proud that Ziyi Zhang is the 1st Chinese nominated for Golden Globe? Neither am I proud that she is the 1st Chinese to be invited to give out an Oscar award~

haha.. got it?? ;)))

Who say I only like Ashin?

過去的一個月左右都在下載綜藝節目，電台廣播等。只因爲五月天裏我最喜歡的阿信，以個人名義出了書。我記得我曾經說過我無法形容阿信出書我有多開心之類的話。一直到那首單曲的出現，我興奮的心情開始變質。但是，之後一連串由阿信獨自上的通告又讓我恢復原來的情緒。當很多五月天的支持者都在感慨萬千之餘，我卻常常很期待看到或聽到阿信所上的節目。畢竟阿信是五月天當中我最欣賞的。所以即使其他團員不在，我的興奮程度沒有減很多。頂多是節目比較不好笑，比較少爆點罷了。

可是我在一個小時前看了 "華眾曲寵" 的頒獎典禮，當他們五個一起站在台上表演，台下的觀衆熱情地回應時，Believe it or not~ I cried :'(((((
原來, afterall, I still miss the Five of them together rather badly...
真的已經很久很久沒有看到他們五個站在同一個舞台上了... 雖然實際上只不過兩個月，但是阿信的"單飛" 使得這兩個月過得好像兩個世紀。可能是因爲他的那些通告和新聞更會讓人想起五月天吧~
言歸正傳，一直以來，有很些人可能會覺得我對阿信的欣賞遠超越對五月天的欣賞。他們讓我自己也開始懷疑是不是真的是這樣。(雖然我心裏並沒有覺得有什麽不妥，最起碼我敢承認。也不覺得欣賞阿信是膚淺的。)

一直到剛才，看見他們表演的那一幕，我才意識到 "嘿！誰說我只是喜歡阿信？" 我發現五月天一起站在台上的感染力遠遠超越阿信自己一個人。還有另外一個重點！！！那就台下的觀衆！！ 我想，如果五月天的歌迷不是像這群人那樣，我大概也不會變得那麽瘋五月天吧~ 每次大家一起看五月天的時候，真的都能感覺到大家就像一家人！很溫馨！！！即使這群人當中其實也藏著不同的心結，但是一起聼他們的歌，一起像瘋子在跳的時候，那些不愉快都變得很渺小~

所以啊~ 我又老套地 pray that 五月天不會解散！！！原因就不用多說了~
喜歡五月天的人肯定知道！而那些對五月天沒什麽感覺的人，我即使說了你也不會明白~

This is going to be super short!!

Last night, I stayed up till 2+, having great chatting sessions with various ppl!! And because of this!! I heard Ashin's Happy Birth Day on 933!!!! wahaha... For the FIRST time!!!! I think 933 did not get the Exclusive airing thingy~ haha... serves them rite~

Den today!!! On my way to school, I heard it AGAIN!!!!!! yeah yeah!!! very high!!!
Both DJ (peifen and mary) mentioned that its Mayday's Ashin's~ They din say its Mayday's~
Although its written WU YUE TIAN on the playlist~

Lastly, I am glad that my initial dislike, disappointment for the song are fading...
Hope things will get better~

And just to add on to my busy March schedule... Did I mention I just got myself 2 tuition assignments, I am going to work and I am going to NATAS fair... Can I pray to GOD and ask for March to have 50Days??? -_-

Today is the 1st day of March! erm... Nothing special took place in the past few days...
I think I will be blogging slightly less this month... This month is going to be EXTREMELY busy..
Simply because all my assignments/projects are due by the end of this month...
I have got 2 projects and a 5000-word essay... And yes... 2 more tests...

A friend just reminded me today that exams are only 6 weeks away... YUCKS!!!
And now, there is still one module which I totally, honestly DUNNO wat's going on!!!!YUCKS YUCKS!!!!!!!!

Dunno how to survive this 6 weeks.. :'(((((
And this is my last sem you noe???

Lastly, I have FINALLY decided to go NIE... Thanks audrey and kungfubaby and the rest for all the advise ;))) But I still need to let them noe that I cannot start on 20th March leh... But hor!!! MOE is not replying my emails and not picking up my phonecalls!!!! KAO!! Dunno wat they doing.....

Last lastly, I thank GOD for the job offer!!! haha... its coming just the time I need it :DDD

Last last lastly, I wore my Mayday shirt to school today! And I saw this girl at engine bridge... When I walked past her, she shouted 五月天!!!!! Den her friends turned to look at me~ Wah lao... I totally 嚇倒 can!!!? haha... I stopped and gave them a nod... Sound as if I AM 五月天 rite? wahahahha... But I really dunno how to response sia... Den she went on to explain to her friends that the shirt I am wearing is a Mayday shirt.. She is DEFINITELY a Mayday fan loh!!! wahahhaa.... I really hope to find out who she is leh!!! I wanna say sorry to her... cos I think my attitude was a little 冷淡 :ppp But that's only because I never thought that someone will see the t-shirt and will actually be excited enough to express it out! Anyway~ Hope that we will meet somewhere soon! haha.. Maybe in the forum!!