I wish I was dead

I want to be a hermit.

No friends, no families, no nothing.

Just me, myself and I.

In this way, my only problem will be how to deal with solitude.

Or even better, be a dead person.

Then even the only problem is gone.

Then I do not have to wake up every morning facing all my unfinished work, unsolved problems and facing how people judge me, how ppl get disappointed by me, how ppl are worried of me.

Right now, I really dunno how to face my problems anymore.

哭也哭過了，

談也算談過了，

我真的真的很想放棄了。

但究竟 what am I still holding on to?

And what the hell am I hoping for?